This week Ryan and I registered at Target. (It is weird to write these letters because I know you would have asked the most off the wall questions about these experiences, so if I was really talking to you this letter would go a completely different direction.) It was a lot of fun. I think the funniest part was that Ryan had way more opinions than I did about things which is hilarious. It also worked out well because I would have just stood at the wall of towels forever not really caring and he was like 'hmmm, this looks good...beep.' and the decision was made.
It seems like every few days I'll search for an email in my inbox and I'll come across your old ones. Thanks for those weekly group emails. (Kelsey, Kinsey, and Kassie you should go back and read the one she sent on 3/8/07. It is a tear jerker.)
"i also hope that you girls would be able to say you knew me well, i have tried to be really open with all of you..i might not be the greatest mom but i did a lot better job at it than my mom while i was growing up...she did the best she could at those times..just as we keep this going and all of you kids will be really great moms,better than i"
You were a great mom and we did know you well. Thanks for leaving the journals you wrote for us and your own journals and blog for us to read and learn from.
"So this all comes down to, is it good to do so much writing down thoughts and feelings. Years from now, will you girls read them. Will you curl up your lazy boys chairs and read them like they are a good book. I was really glad i read 1980 last night, it maybe realize I really am a survivor."
Thanks mom for everything--memories, journals, emails and blogs--that you left us.
your favorite kaci jo