Wednesday, March 31, 2010


Today was a sad day.  I found myself on the brink of tears several times.

Mourning isn't fun.  Not fun at all.  Especially cause it creeps up at the most random times.

I've officially decided I think holidays are the most awkward events in my family.  This Easter will be the first Easter without an uncle, my grandma, my grandpa, and my mom.  Weird.

Our family will still partake in the normal gathering at the grandparents' house with the ham and Easter egg hunt.  Yet the people who lived in that house will be gone.

My mom is gone.

That makes me sad.  Today.  A lot.    

Waiting Patiently...

for Sun and Jin to reunite on Lost that is.  And other random thoughts about Lost.  If you haven't watched this episode or any, you should stop reading now.

But I'm starting to think that will never happen and that makes me sad.  If you look at all 6 seasons of Lost, Sun and Jin are rarely ever actually together.  And now in the flash sideways, they aren't together also.  So in the end are we going to find out they were never 'supposed' to be together.

I still don't understand the flash sideways.  I know no one fully understands the flash sideways yet though.  They seem so attached to what is happening on the island at that time.  In the flash sideways, Sun didn't speak English and then on the island last night, she couldn't speak English either.  The two timelines seem like the blend somehow.

So Charles Widmore is a good guy?  Did Widmore not want Desmond to marry Penny not because he didn't like him but because he was going to have to sacrifice himself somehow?

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

go read this

My church has been doing an online blog preparing people for Easter.  The four weeks have focused on Prepare, Prayer, Care, Share.  God has convicted me pretty heavily on a couple of topics through this series (more on that later.)  But for now, you guys should all go check out today's post.  It is by your's truly.

Friday, March 26, 2010

Dear Mr. Caribou Man (part XXIX)

Dear Mr. Caribou,
Today you weren't at Caribou, but your good friend Scott was.  He seemed to be waiting for you.  He got up several times and walked around to see if you were hiding from him.  My friend, Abby, and I decided that Scott's last name is probably Polo.  So I hope you get to see Scott Polo soon!

Until next week,

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Just Another Thurs and Two Pounds of Meat

Wow!  Somebody was hungry.

Two pounds of meat plus lots of other toppings that are sure to cause a heart attack.

The last half...

Starting with the fork action.

Pondering the last bite

And he did it!

(yes I took an excessive amount of pictures during this event, but when you order a normal size sandwich and finish it within a few minutes and have to wait for someone to eat 2 pounds of meat, you have to entertain yourself somehow.)

Cavities and Pride

I recently found out that I have an incredible amount of cavities.  This is because of years of drinking soda (I haven't now for over 100 days!), well water growing up, and not going to the dentist in 10+ years.  

I have learned lots of things about me through this experience.  One thing is I find myself telling people the actual number.  I thought it was strange that I was doing this.  Why would anyone choose to humiliate themselves in this way?  

Then I was talking to someone that I hadn't told and they said 'I found out a secret about you.'  I had no idea what they were talking about.  Then they shared how shocked they were by my number of cavities.  They then went on telling me all about oral hygiene (yes I know I need to brush my teeth twice a day, floss, and use fluoride mouth rinse.)  This person was a good friend and did this all with a good nature, yet it still made me feel not good.  

It dawned on me.  I choose to tell people this humiliating fact about me, so I can be in control.  If I present it to them, I keep the power in the situation; they can't make fun of me.  I share the facts, so it is not kept in the dark for people to secretly find out.  It is all a form of self protection, preserving how people view me.  

Lots of people around me could tell you that one of the things I struggle most in life with is caring way too much about what people think of me.  This situation showed me just another area that this comes out in.  

I know I want to live a life where I live to please an audience of One.  I know I am far from that and I fail in this area every day. But I also know that that is my desire--to please God alone.  I also know that God has promised to continue to refine me.  So I choose today to walk in his grace and pray that he will rid me of this.  

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Just Another Perfect Sunday

Wordless Wednesday

Friday, March 19, 2010

Dear Mr. Caribou Man (part XXVIII)

Dear Mr. Caribou Man,
Every time a friend comes to visit me at Caribou, you are never there.  It has happened at least 15 times.  Except yesterday!!! You were there!!!  My friend Abbie and Tonio got to see you.  And you were wearing your lime green sweater!!!

Thanks for bringing me smiles,

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

random pictures...

weekends are my sundaes with cherries on top

My weekend review
(I know you have all been anxiously awaiting.)

granite city
great conversation
game night
new friends
old friends
ice cream
more laughter

meeting with brandon
omaha car ride
leaky water pump
no go omaha
off to perry
get backup car
rockin' line dancing
four amazing women

car will not start
church service at westwind
z'mariks lunch with friends
try to start car
back to granite city
good beer, good food
foam swords in driveway
try to start the car
successfully start the car
so so much laughter

Monday, March 15, 2010


I guess I didn't make it clear in the last post.  Ryan and I are still dating; it was another sister who broke up with her boyfriend.

Ryan and I are still happily together. This was taken on our wonderful double date yesterday that included good beer, foam swords, and lots of laughter.

Friday, March 12, 2010

Mr. Caribou Man (special edition)

click on it to make it bigger :)

Thursday, March 11, 2010

oh how I love my RSS feeds

Oh how my sister, Kelsey, knows me oh too well....She found this here.

If you just look at all the blogs you read at their actual address, you should check out google reader.

Here's a really good step-by-step guide.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

secure in who I am

Today I was pondering how I feel completely overwhelmed by God's goodness right now.  When I look back at the last year of my life, I am completely overwhelmed by his goodness again.

It is a strange thing because in this past year I have felt like I have been on a roller coaster through life.  Four different jobs, moving cities, changing churches, four family would think my life should feel out of control.  Yet it doesn't at all.

I feel more secure than ever.

Not the security that comes in the form of finances, health, success.  But secure in who I am.  Secure in who God has created me to be and where He has put me at every moment through the last twelve months.

He has been my Rock.

 It makes me excited for the days I have yet to experience.  The days that I know God has set before me.  I don't fear them because I know He will use this year of heartache and change.  I know more heartache will come.  I have this strange excitement for it because I know God will use it again in my life to show me he is the Living God who loves me.  

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

funny feelings

I love...
when my friends are set up and it works out
new relationships and all the funny feelings that go with them
hearing about the funny feelings and giggling along with them

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Fight for Air Climb 2010

Before the Climb, note the absence of red in the faces.

All done...Note very red faces

All of the finishers!

Because the Sloss sisters are easily amused.

Lunch afterwards; no point really to this picture besides the fact I like it and I like the guy :)

Dear Mr. Caribou Man (part XXVII)

Dear Mr. Caribou Man,

It was so good to see you on Wednesday!  We had a great conversation.  You told me all about your grand-daughter Jordan who just got a job out in California.  Wow, were you proud or what; I heard you tell four people about it.

One of your friends, Gordan, was there.  You told me all about Gordan and how you both were in the Korean War.  He was actually in battle though.  Gordan also carves things.  He carved a dragon that sold at an auction for $300.  You were shocked.  You thought it would only go for $35.  I asked how often Gordan comes and hangs out at Caribou.  He comes every Monday and Wednesday.

Then you told me all about Mr. Mayo Man.  You haven't seen him in four weeks.  I think it has been a lot longer for me.  I guess he is scared of the ice in the parking lot.  So every morning you come to Caribou he calls you to see if the parking lot is any better.  I'm hoping with all of this warm weather and the rain that he will be back on Tuesday morning!  (Monday I have a dentist appt., so no Caribou time for me.)

Until Tuesday,

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

So you can't leap tall buildings but...

you can climb and be just as heroic.

Monday, March 1, 2010

Dear Mr. Caribou Man (part XXVI)

Dear Mr. Caribou Man,
Today I learned your real name.  I don't know what I think about this.  I have yet to speak it into existence because I think it might just go away.  Maybe I'll forget what it really is.
Your truly,